Thank God for my wife and children who will help me live

She is the one who will help me to know that life will be OK.
My son and daughter also make sure that Im still loved.
I poured out my grief at my mums funeral bu  must remember her by loving my family.

 My little girl having some ice-cream while I was in Canada

 A nice picture of my mum taken by her friend when they went to Cuba in 2006.

My children posing for the camera after their dance recital

 I put this picture up back in the summer but it's a nice one of my wife and I. She is really doing a great job comforting me.

Still hasn't hit me yet that my Mum is gone

 My mother on her wedding day, May 19, 2007. Her ashes are internned in this lovely box.

This has been one of the toughest weeks of my life. I went from just having an ordinary Monday in Japan to being thrust into dealing with the loss of my mother in a car accident.

I stayed with my sister's family in Calgary, Alberta. I met many people, and many more the day of her funeral.

I have yet to have a full emotional outburst. I have also yet to have a full nights sleep. I'm only getting two hours.

I have a feeling of being constantly confused. I might have a few moments of tears, but it's like my brain had coldly accepted that my mother is no more.

I'll never see her again, yet I'm waiting for her to show up.

I miss my wife and children terribly. I feel like a lost little boy who needs someone to give me a hug and to tell me it will be ok.

Because right now, I just feel confused.

I get to go back to Canada, but not for a reason I wanted

My mother, Bernice Rutley was killed in a car accident in Northern Alberta. She was 63. I am in the process of getting a flight back to Canada from Japan.

To those of you with family, say hello or express your love to them. To those of you who have lost a loved one, the loneliness it causes is beyond expression.

Lobscouse - 18th century Cooking series with Jas Townsend and Son S3E17

 Another video talking about foods which soldiers or civilians could have eaten either on campaign, or at public houses.

Salted Fish Cakes: 18th Century Cooking Series at Jas Townsend and Son

 Another video by jastownsendandson As is mentioned, New England was the main supplier, but it was coming from the Grand Banks off the Atlantic coast of Canada. Cod was one of the reasons for warfare in the Atlantic region. If you controlled the cod fishery, there was alot of money to be made. As well, if English fisherfolk were sailing, you had trained ship crews for the navy!

"A Pound of Meat" 18th Century Cooking Series

 Thanks to Jas Townsend and sons for this video. This is one of the main reenactor suppliers which my family uses when getting new kit for our 18th century reenactments.

Edogawa, Tokyo, Japan

My new work area of Tokyo seems pretty. One of the gems which I passed when a teacher in Chuo-ku four years ago was Kasai Seaside Park. My new teaching area of Edogawa is in this neighborhood.

Looking up the hill from the beach back into the park. The best part about this park is it's FREE! If you want to go look at the sealife park in the park and pay around 1000yen, go ahead. This park is one of the biggest green areas in this part of the city.

Looking towards Haneda Airport across Tokyo Bay. This park covers a stretch of coastline about 4km long. It's a mix of beach, grass area and trees.

The hotels at  Tokyo Disney Resort across the river in Urayasu, Chiba prefecture,

Looking towards Tokyo Disney Resort from the beach at Kasai Seaside Park.

Looking from one of the bridges on the bicycle path which goes through the Kasai region of Edogawa.

Looking towards the ferris wheel from the station platform

Looking into Kasai Seaside Park from Kasairinkaikoen Station, JR Keiyo/Musashino line

Terror in the Woods - Who is in Pursuit of Josh?

 Some of the military and civilian clothing this company sells. My family who does reenacting back in Canada has used this kit.

Privations of 18th Century Soldiers - Jas Townsend and Son Cooking Series

 Thanks to James Townsend and Sons for making these videos. The British were not as bad off, but could also face these conditions when supplies run short.

Hevia - Busindre Reel video oficial HQ

 I have always liked this song, but it holds a special place in my heart as the day my son was born, the nursing staff had a CD entitled The Most Relaxing Feel, and this tune was one of them playing. When it began, he really did start to want to come out. Copyright held by Hevia